#is so important to changing their identity

[distracteddaintydemon]

[ID 1: 3 images with the caption: We need this version of frozen!! in all caps. The first image is elsa from frozen with a straight bob cut, chain, sleeveless white top, and a denim jacket. The second image shows Anna with space buns with 2 strands of hair pulled out, a choker, and a spaghetti strap dark blue dress. The third image shows Kristoff with a short haircut, a trimmed beard and mustache, and a white tshirt.

ID 2: A reply by @socte-blue: how did they white wash white people

ID 3: A reply by @reblog-house: its just hit me why the phrase "how did they whitewash white people" works. It works because americanisation isnt noticed for what it is and it's instead just described as whitewashing. This is someone taking non-american white characters and making them fit the pinnacle of _american_ whiteness, stripping them of their culture just to fit american subcultures and fashions. It _feels_ like whitewashing because it rids them of their culture and heritage to fit american molds.

ID 4: Screenshot of tags reading: #^This #really it's fascinating and a bit unsettling how American assimilation means cultural erasure #so much distinctiveness gets lost #which i think is important to point out when talking about 'whiteness' #especially when certain people invoke 'white culture' or 'white history' #since there is literally no such thing #and they know it - it's why they try to be sound smarter and say things like 'western culture' #rather than what they really mean #which is a very certain type of white upper-middle class protestant #Whiteness is a political label that can arbitrarily be applied or revoked to a person or group of people #I can for sure tell you there is a nasty undercurrent of old-world racism that is still persistent even today in America #such as against citizens of Italian - Russian - Polish or Irish descent #all people who were traditionally poor peasant immigrants who practiced a type of Christianity that wasn't protestant #i.e. catholic and Orthodox #(denominations that are to this day considered in evangelical Christianity as "false" faiths - the "wrong" kind of christian) #we are really not that many steps removed from the ethnic and classist European racism of our grandparents #and ir world be so so easily for those in power to change the rules again - in order the shrink the circle of privilege #and its material benefits to fewer people #Race #Whiteness #Americanism #American Identity #Assimilation #Conformity #Cultural Erasure #Frozen

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Zodiac Signs Who Will Be The Main Characters of 2025 🏆✨🎉

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🥇 PISCES (Moon, Rising, Chart Ruler)

SATURN IN PISCES (January 2025-May 2025) + (September 2025-February 2026):

Taking responsibility for your life, focusing on personal growth, developing resilience, defining who you are on your own terms, building a solid foundation for the future, turning your visions into reality.

VENUS & MERCURY RETROGRADE IN PISCES (Retrograde Overlap from March 14th 2025-March 24th 2025):

An important moment for reflection, taking a closer look at your relationships and the ways you communicate, revisiting old connections, rediscovering forgotten passions, slowing down to realign with your inner truth.

LUNAR ECLIPSE IN PISCES (September 7th 2025):

A powerful moment of culmination and transformation, sudden shifts and insights about your identity and personal path, shedding what’s holding you back so you can step into your next chapter with purpose.

🥈 ARIES (Moon, Rising, Chart Ruler)

SATURN IN ARIES (May 24th 2025 - September 1st 2025):

The beginning of a new cycle in your personal growth, taking responsibility for your goals, stepping into a leadership role in your life, confronting self-doubt, maturing or redefining your sense of self.

NEPTUNE IN ARIES (March 30th 2025-October 22nd 2025):

A wave of inspiration and imagination, dream big and align your actions with a higher sense of purpose, reconnecting with your intuition and spiritual potential, reimagining who you are and how you present yourself to the world, visionary thinking, taking inspired action.

As Saturn dips back into Pisces (September 2nd 2025-February 14th 2026), you’ll revisit some emotional or spiritual themes from the past to tie up any loose ends. This reflective period will prepare you for the full-on Saturn in Aries experience (starting on February 15th 2026-April 13th 2028), where you’ll step into greater authority and responsibility.

🥉 GEMINI (Moon, Rising, Chart Ruler)

JUPITER IN GEMINI (May 26th 2024-June 8th 2025):

A year of personal growth, stepping into your confidence, expanding your horizons, embracing the best version of yourself, discovering what makes you shine and leaning into it, feeling more open to explore new ideas or even physical experiences, an excellent time for networking and claiming the spotlight.

URANUS IN GEMINI (July 7th 2025-November 7th 2025):

A preview of revolutionary changes to your identity, the urge to break free from old roles or expectations, reinventing yourself, adopting a new look, a shift in how you express yourself, taking center stage in your own life, redefining who you are, reclaiming your narrative. Consider this your “trailer” for the personal evolution and breakthroughs ahead. This energy will play out fully starting on the 26th of April 2026.

🎖 CANCER (Moon, Rising, Chart Ruler)

JUPITER IN CANCER (June 9th 2025-June 30th 2026):

Amplified confidence and sense of self, focusing on personal growth, improving your self-image, taking bold steps toward your goals, a renewed sense of purpose and an inner glow that others can’t help but notice.

SATURN IN ARIES (May 24th 2025 - September 1st 2025):

Confronting situations where you need more courage and determination, feeling the pressure to balance ambitions with your emotional needs, a period of setting boundaries and taking responsibility for your future, stepping into a more structured, ambitious version of yourself without losing your emotional depth.

🏅VIRGO (Moon, Rising, Chart Ruler)

ECLIPSES IN VIRGO (March 29th 2025, September 21st 2025):

A year of personal reinvention, pivotal moments where you’re inspired to redefine your personal goals, a fresh chapter, prioritizing your needs and embracing your strengths.

SATURN IN PISCES (January 2025-May 2025) + (September 2025-February 2026):

Taking responsibility for your life, making tough decisions, a test of boundaries in relationships, reevaluation of partnerships, dealing with external pressure, assessing who you are, what you want, and how you show up in the world, letting go of limiting beliefs.

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Interpreting the MC Persona Chart by yourself

The MC (Midheaven) persona chart may seem complex at first, but it’s actually quite straightforward to interpret. Since persona charts are still a relatively new concept in the astrology community, many of the interpretations I’ve come across on Tumblr are either inaccurate or missing key details. Given the number of requests I’ve received, I thought it was important to clarify a few things.

I’m also in the process of writing a book that will explore persona charts in greater detail. If you’re interested, feel free to comment below! It’s really reassuring to me to hear that you a liking what I post and that it’s helping you understand a little better.

So we know that the MC Persona, the focuses on your public life, career, reputation, and aspirations. It represents how you engage with your ambitions and how you strive to fulfil your life’s purpose in the outer world. The MC persona chart provides a detailed lens into the archetype of your professional identity and legacy, reflecting the roles and energies you embody when you seek achievement or recognition. 

Key Elements to Analyze in the MC Persona Chart

1. The MC’s Placement and Ruler

• The MC Sign: The zodiac sign on the Midheaven indicates the qualities you bring to your public life. For instance:

• Aries MC: Bold, competitive, and pioneering in your career.

• Libra MC: Diplomatic, relationship-focused, and creative in your aspirations.

• The MC Ruler: The planetary ruler of the MC sign becomes critical in understanding how you direct your energy toward your goals so it refers to the style , focus and energy you bring into your professional role, as well as the areas of life where you are most likely to invest your efforts to achieve success. Example:

If Venus rules your MC (e.g., Taurus or Libra MC), you may prioritize beauty, harmony, relationships, and creativity in your professional life.

2. The Ascendant in the MC Persona Chart

• The Ascendant represents how the “career self” or public-facing persona appears to the world. It provides insights into your approach to achieving success. For example:

• Sagittarius Rising: A public persona marked by optimism, exploration, and a passion for spreading knowledge.

• Cancer Rising: A nurturing, protective approach to public life, focusing on emotional connection and service.

3. Sun in the MC Persona Chart

• The Sun represents your core identity within the context of your career and legacy. Its placement by sign and house reveals where and how you shine in your professional life:

• Sun in the 10th House: A strong desire for recognition and leadership in your field.

• Sun in the 6th House: A focus on work and service as essential to your public identity.

4. Moon in the MC Persona Chart

• The Moon reflects emotional fulfillment and subconscious motivations in your career. Its placement reveals where you seek emotional resonance in your professional pursuits:

• Moon in the 4th House: A need for your work to feel like “home” or to reflect deep personal values.

• Moon in the 11th House: Emotional satisfaction through group efforts, social causes, or long-term goals.

5. The Outer Planets (Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto)

• These planets often signify long-term influences or transformational energies in your career:

• Saturn: Represents discipline, responsibility, and challenges in achieving your goals.

• Uranus: Highlights innovation, rebellion, or sudden changes in your public life.

• Neptune: Reflects dreams, illusions, or spirituality tied to your career.

• Pluto: Indicates transformation, power dynamics, and profound shifts in your aspirations.

6. The Houses in the MC Persona Chart

The houses in the MC persona chart retain their foundational meanings but reflect how your public identity and career aspirations manifest in different life areas:

• 1st House: How you present yourself in your career. The “face” of your professional persona.

• 6th House: Your daily work habits and routines as they relate to your public life.

• 10th House: The core area of career and public identity, showing where you aim for recognition and success.

• 12th House: Hidden influences or subconscious patterns affecting your professional life.

7. Aspects in the MC Persona Chart

• MC Ruler’s Aspects: The aspects made by the planet ruling your MC sign reveal critical dynamics in your career:

• Conjunction with Jupiter: Opportunities for growth and expansion in your professional life.

• Square with Saturn: Challenges and delays in achieving recognition, requiring perseverance.

• Sun–MC Aspects: The interaction between your core identity and your professional aspirations.

How to Use the MC Persona Chart

1. Understand Your Career Archetype: The MC persona chart reveals the energy, qualities, and challenges that define your approach to public life. For example:

• If the MC is in Leo, the chart may focus on creativity and leadership.

• If the MC is in Virgo, the emphasis may be on precision, service, and skill mastery.

2. Clarify Your Motivations: Use the MC persona chart to uncover the motivations behind your professional choices. The Moon’s placement often reveals what brings emotional satisfaction in your career.

• A strong Saturn in the MC persona chart suggests discipline and endurance but may also indicate career-related delays or burdens.

• A challenging Neptune aspect could suggest confusion or unrealistic expectations in your professional goals.

I Hope that helps

[justsumtransdude2000]

Because you asked so nicely;

When we talk about twinkification we first have to establish what 'twink' as a concept is, and while I don't like playing semantics I do think the way we define this word is extremely important, mostly because twink, in the modern era has become one of two things. On one hand, it has become a term to use about any feminine man, sometimes even regardless of sexuality or even gender presentation. On the other, it has become another way for straight white women to call gay men slurs without actually saying said slurs. I don't think I should have to explain to you why both of these definitions are incorrect, harmful, and water down the way we see twink. Twink, according to Wikipedia (and before I hear any bullshit about it being wiki, if you will oh so kindly look at the long source list, there are many credible and also queer sources for the article) refers to a skinny, often young, hairless gay man. This definition has evolved from its (highly debated) original one of either 'twank' (a gay, male prostitute who is also a bottom) or twinkie, as a reference to the food because twinkies (I shit you not this is what the article says) lack nutritional value, sweet to the taste and creme filled. Now, the article says that twink is merely a physical marker. I, as a gender non conforming trans man who considers himself othered from the community of gay men (for reasons of both transness and bisexuality), cannot speak on this, or how the word is currently used in gay culture. I can, however, as a chronically online piece of shit, speak on how the word has developed in fandom culture, and how the twinkification of a character is not just physical, but also a stripping of said characters main attributes. But, to summarize, the word twink refers to an effeminate gay man who is (traditionally) young and a bottom. He is skinny, tall and sassy. Twink, in the real world is used only as a physical marker, but in fandom space is almost completely different to its real world usage.

Now that the semantics are out of the way we can get to the meat and potatoes of this essay. Twinkification, as a process applied it fictional characters, is bad because it strips them of their core identity traits to make room for sass, their skinniness (which is turned into a personality trait, or, at the very least a main characteristic) and their bottomness (please see the previous set of parenthesis). As to be as precise as possible with how this can/does happen I will use characters from a fandom I am familiar with as an example; Regulus and Sirius Black, as characterized by the Marauders Fandom (which is, in fact leagues different from the Harry Potter Fandom). However, to be as precise as I personally want to be, I also have to explain the significance of both of their characters, and how them being changed fundamentally is not that out of place because of the fandom, so that I can (eventually) prove that the way they are often characterized not only does not resonate the sentiments of the fandom, but actively works against it.

Firstly, the Marauders Fandom does not abide by canon, unlike other fandoms that may work in a very dissimilar way. This fandom operates on the basis that, because the canon is written by a TERF who gets physically enraged when in proximity to a trans person, taking her original characters and making them as queer as possible actively works against her, and is therefore not only a way of protest, but also a way to enjoy some peoples favorite media, guilt free. (There are multiple different sides to this arguement, and while I have my opinions on what constitutes protest and how guilt free one can actually be while not actively doing something for the communities JKR often hurts, that is not what this essay is about). This is the viewpoint all the characters, and therefore my argument, hinges on. To truly understand the twinkification process we need to first examine how these characters are treated in canon versus in the fanon universe. Sirius, for example, is canonically very unefeminate. While he is sassy, often throwing quips and firing back at people when he has the chance, he is not sassy in the same way that twinks are. In fact, I would argue Remus is much more effeminate and twink adjacent, but I'll put a pin in that for now. Going back to Sirius, though, he is almost the antithesis of a twink when it comes to a real world perception of the concept. He has wild, long hair in his first appearance, and while he is also skinny that is because he is malnourished, not because it is his natural state. He also has thick facial hair that he keeps throughout his appearances in the movies and (if I'm not mistaken) the books. He is hairy, vulgar at times, sarcastic, and doesn't do anything I (personally) would deem as 'bottom behavior.' His fanon appearances are, however, quite different.

Throughout fanon Sirius is often depicted, physically, in the same way he is when he is severely malnourished and on the run from soul sucking demons, which is to say, the fanon is not based on him when he is at his best both mentally and physically. He is often written or drawn to have gaunt cheeks and skinny, bordering on malnourished, features. His hair is long, but kept very proper, his nails are trimmed short (sometimes) and often colored, he is very often depicted as a bottom in the very popular fanon ship between him and Remus Lupin, and dresses extremely differently depending on the depiction. It is here, however, I do have to admit I do not have a strong case for his twinkification, because of the fact that he is often written to be genderfluid or nonbinary, and its a very common headcanon to hold. That being said, he is still often robbed of his personality to be the traumatized, rich, twink who is alll the way down bad for one Remus Lupin. Even in his own fics he is often characterized as lazy, dumb, and only carrying the following personality traits; sarcastic, traumatized, skinny, and slutty waist (I am truly tired of hearing this phrase! I mean it! Stop sexualizing every part of a goddamn body you hornballs). This is all to say that; twinkification is not only about the body but also about the soul.

Moving on, however, to my much stronger evidence; Regulus Arcturus Black. Regulus has 0 canon appearances, on account of being dead, and has a few cameos of which only his memory is present. The only things we know are; he was a death eater because he was (as described by Sirius Black, his brother,) 'too soft' not to fall into the ideology his parents had picked out for him, he was a Slytherin, he was on the quidditch team and likely a seeker. There is a singular picture in the film adaptation that makes him appear, in my opinion, quite well built. However, when adapted into fandom many things are changed about him. He and his brother are implied to having been abused by their parents, causing Sirius to move out in the summer between 6th and 7th year (I could be wrong on this as the canon and fanon timelines have become muddled), something that canonically is often translated into physical abuse. Because of this Regulus is betrayed as the lesser willed sibling. While Sirius definetly has a fight response the the abuse in fanon, Regulus has a freeze or (more accurately) fawn reaction, which unfortunately leads people to portray him as weak (there is a lot to say about that and how this fandom in general views abuse victims, and as someone who is an abuse victim myself some of you guys really could benefit from, I dunno, logging off a while). He is often also portrayed as sarcastic, depressed and skinny which I must emphasize is more often than not a personality trait and not a descriptor. Because we don't know much about his canon personality there is no telling if this directly contradicts his canon self, but we do know that he was, for lack of better term, kinda evil. He was a death eater and only really stopped being one because Voldemort hurt his closest friend, a house elf named Kreature. Why do people do this though? The same reason people do anything in fandom - for the sake of a ship. A very popular fanon ship is Jegulus the ship between Regulus Black and James Potter. James in this instance is a jock, one of Sirius' friends and a (for lack of better term) Good Guy, TM. People like this dynamic because, you guessed it, poor gay sadboi gets rescued by Good Guy TM and the abusers die, or whatever, Regulus is stripped of his autonomy in his own choices because it's no fun if he actually chose anything because that would make him flawed and while fandom praises morally grey people they actually hate staring into the abyss and seeing anything relatively human staring back at them because then they are reminded that their black and white thinking will not help them brave the winter that is going outside and interacting with people. Moreover, Regulus is often stripped of an identity outside of Jegulus, his personhood being removed along with his autonomy so that he can be forever codependent on James, until death do them part. He is also often described as pretty in an almost feminine way, white, short and gay, with high cheekbones and gaunt cheeks and - fuck how many other ways can I say he's skinny? To get to my point, Regulus is twinkified by his autonomy and personhood being stripped away from him systemically to make room for fandom's favorite OTP. By taking away the bad things he's done, and then labeling him morally grey because he is mean but in a way that reminds people of their own high school bullies, we are stripping him of the things that make him him, and cutting him down to a borderline homophobic caricature of an 'evil twink.'

Finally, why do I think this happens? A lot of reasons. The shift in public perception from gay people being evil baby eating crossdressers to them being okay in most parts if America and Canada has also shifted how covertly homophobic people are allowed socially to talk about us. Because of this they have had to find sneakier ways to call us slurs, and have settled (or had settled, for a while) on twink. But, because straight people primarily control culture and therefore perception of us, the general reaction from gay and queer people was important. Hence the normalization of calling any gay man with a pulse a twink. But I think that has little to do with fandom and more to do with the general okay attitude towards it.

I also think it happens because of people's general want for that morally grey, but not in a too bad way, characters. They want that golden spot of getting someone who is mean and does kind of bad things like stealing and smoking cigarettes and calling them fags, but not someone whose actions they actually have to reckon with and actively try not to normalize. Basically it is really hard to defend racism, even if it's in a fictional setting.

Furthermore, I want to talk about peoples need for a sanitized type of queerness. A gay man who is feminine, but won't put on a dress because crossdressing is still generally weird and too gay right now and just not in. Someone who is sassy but not female because then it isn't gay. Someone who only breaks gender norms a little, because if they actually broke out of the box that is gender a lot of people would not be able to tuck themselves in at night knowing that characters in a fictionally setting are defying norms in a universe they are not a part of. Because, at the end of the day, it's cool to have 'deconstructed gender' until you have to confront how it has benefitted you, so to get around it? Strip characters that you want to be gay but not too gay into a caricature that you can see in any late 90's early aughts romcom/sitcom.

I am sorry that this took so long and also sorry for writing it. I am a yapper, and you asked, so really it's your fault (damn am I Regulus because the writer is stripping me from accountability with my own choices)

People who twinkify Regulus/Sirius and make James/Remus (respectively) big and strong haven't unpacked heteronormativity and still believe - maybe even subconsciously - that every relationship has a 'man' and a woman.' In this essay I will-

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₊˚⊹ ᰔ Selena Gomez has her Descendant in Aquarius, so ruled traditionally by Saturn. Saturn is in her own 7H, indicating she could start to get married after her Saturn Return. Yet, this is an indicator of marrying "late". Her Saturn return already happened and it was in 2022. Yet, her Jupiter, which represents the husband, is in Virgo, and often a Jupiter return can indicate happy timing for marriages, and sometimes also meeting of the FS. The next time it will return for her it is in 2027. Now, checking her Solar Returns, this year she got engaged and it was indeed something I saw coming. Yet, she could in 2025 to 2026 have some difficulties in her love life, things can get hard sometimes, I think the engagement will be long, or at least there will be some hardships the next few years. Yet, checking her Solar Return in 2027 just SCREAMS wedding to me. The beautiful 7H stellium with Sun, Venus, Mercury, Briede, moreover 7H Ruler is in 7H, and it is her Jupiter return!! In this case, Solar Return 2027-2028 could be the time she can get married.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Jennie (BLACKPINK) has Gemini 7H, so ruled by Mercury, this could be an indicator of marrying young, but her 7H Ruler is in her 2H, and conjunct Saturn, which also happens to be her 2H Ruler. This is an indicator of marrying on or after her Saturn Return. Which happens around 2025. Looking at her Solar Return, there MAY have been a proposal already, perhaps either happened or will happen, yet idk if it will come out or not, or if it'd actually true. Be careful with this, yet, if she does get marry, her Solar Return of 2026-2027 to me is the most obvious. It's around her Saturn Return, and in this SRC, she has 5H and 7H rulers both in 10H. Her 10H has Sun, Venus, Pluto, Mars AND Mercury. This is an indicator of a big success in career, but also a huge change in identity, mostly that Pluto conjunct the Sun there. The rulers of the romance houses are all there, and her 1H Ruler is also there, meaning there is a change of identity and it is also related to her romance. Yet, the ruler of the 10H is in 12H, this may be hidden from the public. It may not be 100% true, this is just for entertainment, so take it lightly.

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₊˚⊹ ᰔ Mingyu (SEVENTEEN) has Sagittarius 7H, so ruled by Jupiter. I also wanna add that he has Sun conjunct Saturn, and Venus conjunct Saturn, so usually this indicates a delay in marriage, he can again get married after his Saturn return or during. His Saturn return is in 2026. He also has his 11H and Venus both ruled by Mars. Mars is a planet that often comes as a return, and here are the next year for his returns: 2025, 2027, 2028. Now, when we look at the solar returns, I wanna say that there are chances he could go public in his solar return 2025-2026 with someone, he may say he is with someone and it can be public. As for the timing of a wedding, I wanna say the one that really caught my attention is during his SRC 2027-2028. He has a 7H stellium with Juno, Moon, Neptune, Mercury, and 7H Ruler is in 7H. This looks pretty good and moreover he has a Mars return, which seems important for those indicators.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Zendaya has her 7H ruled by Sun. She also has her 2H and 11H ruled by Jupiter both. Yet, her Jupiter is itself ruled by Saturn, and she has a Saturn return in 2026. Now looking at her Solar Returns, which are very important here since her 7H is ruled by the Sun, we can see that this current SRC, something big can happen in her love life, and I have said it before. So we will see how the rest of her SRC can develop. Yet this doesn't seem to be the year of wedding. But looking at the next Solar Return, 2025-2026, she has big indicators of getting married. She has her natal rising as her src rising, so the Sun is in the 7H, Vertex, mercury too, and 7H Ruler is in 7H. She also has Scorpio 10H, and Pluto conjunct Rising. Change in her identity and something big happening in her love life. It is also her Saturn return, so it could make even more sense.

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Heya! May I request "Running on two or three hours of sleep" for Jamie Dutton?

(My Yellowstone blog is "Stupidyellowstoneshitposts, by the way. Just so you can see I'm active😝)

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Companion piece to:

Break Free - Jamie decides it's time to break free from Yellowstone.

Colorado - Jamie takes off to Colorado for a break after John's betrayal.

Enough - Jamie questions his self worth.

Jamie’s already on his third cup of coffee by the time you awaken. He hears your light footsteps padding across the hardwood floor and looks up to see you standing there in the doorway of the kitchen, the blanket from the bed draped over your shoulders to ward off the chill in the Colardo air.

“How bad is it?” You ask gesturing at the phone clasped between his hands.

He swallows hard as he sets the device down at the breakfast island, pushing it away from him with his fingertips. It’s been a week since he’s looked at his phone, he’d locked it away in the glove compartment of your car when the two of you first took off to Colardo and hadn’t retrieved it until the early hours of this morning because he couldn’t sleep. The two of you are returning to Montana today and he’d wanted to see what he was coming back to.

“Over 100 missed calls, a dozen voice mails and some texts.” He tells you as he rubs his palm across his chin in agitation. There’s dark stubble starting to blossom across his jaw, something you’ve never seen before because he’s always been forced to play the role of the clean cut lawyer. It’s a sign that he’s changing, that he’s starting to work things out for himself.

“Have you been through them?” You ask him as you take up residence on the stool alongside him, shifting the blanket so it covers your bare legs. You’re wearing one of his shirts and a pair of blank panties, both of which aren’t conducive to the cool mountain air. Jamie gets up and moves to the thermostat, altering the temperature before he answers your question.

“I started to but…” He trails off, rubbing his hand over the back of his neck.

But it’s overwhelming, you know. Jamie’s departure from Bozemen had thrown a spanner in the works for a lot of people and their clambering for his attention, trying to draw him back, trying to manipulate him. Your man, he’s in a very vulnerable position right now, his life is in flux, his identity shaken, he’s trying to find his own way in the world, the one that allows him to live his own life, one not in the service of others.

“Let me help.” You say picking up the phone and scrolling through it. It’s a jumble of notifications. You decide to dismiss the calls and delete the voicemails as they’re all reactionary and Jamie doesn’t need his father growling in his ear about his disappointed he is.

You work through the texts as Jamie starts to heap teaspoons of coffee into the French press, waiting for the kettle to boil.

“Bullshit, bullshit, Beth, bullshit, bullshit. A nice one from Kayce, we’ll save for later.” You murmur as you get rid of the blatant disregard for Jamie and focus on the more important ones.

You set the phone back down on the worktop, your mission completed as Jamie returns to you, a freshly brewed mug of coffee in his hand. You take him from it gratefully, rising it to your lips to take a sip as he sits down alongside you.

“Thank you for all of this.” He says softly, his voice filled with sincerity. “For seeing I needed to get out of town and take a breath and for dealing with that.” He indicates to the phone.

He looks down at his hands, his thumb chasing over the brown leather strap of the watch you got him for his birthday.

“I’ve never been with someone who could see the real me, who understands me the way that you do.”

The women before you, they never wanted him, not really. They wanted the prestige of his political career, the hope of his inheritance. He has none of that now and still you’re here, taking care of him, protecting him.

“Jamie.” You say tenderly, capturing his hand in yours, fingers entwining. “That’s what you do when you love somebody, you try to help them when their struggling, you support them because they’re your person and you want them to be happy.”

Jamie tips his head up to meet your eyes. They’ve always been such a vivid shade of blue. Sometimes they’re as tempestuous as the ocean, others as calm as a clear sky on a sunny day. Right now they’re ambient, collected and resolved.

“I don’t know what the future looks like Dani.” Jamie tells you as he raises your hand to his mouth, his lips ghosting over the knuckles. “But whatever it is, I’m glad you’re here, that it’s something we can move forward with together.” 

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[radical-revolution]

In Memory

After I got the call that Ram Dass had died yesterday, I closed my eyes.

He is still here.

I could feel the vast field of love that was shining from Ram Dass when Trudy and I taught with him just a couple of weeks ago. And I always will.

On the final day of this last retreat, called “Open Your Heart in Paradise,” Ram Dass was frail and didn’t have access to many words. But he was there in the most powerful way. He swam delightedly with the group in the ocean, chanting “Oh Joy, Oh Joy.”

And on the retreat’s last morning, he put his hands on a basket of 350 wrist malas, each tied with a thread of his guru’s blanket, to tenderly bless them. Then, as participants came by slowly to receive their malas, he silently looked into each face, offering to all what is sometimes called “the glance of mercy,” a gaze so full of love that it left many of us speechless and weeping, drunk with blessing.

I have known Ram Dass for 48 years, as master teacher and inspiration and role model, as a dear friend and benefactor who helped me begin to teach, as a companion on the path, as a truth teller and prankster, as a profound healer and whisperer of souls, as a kind of prophet for a generation. Out in public with him across the years, over and over people would come up to him and speak lovingly, tentatively, urgently, offering thanks, “Ram Dass, I just want to let you know you changed my life!” And he did… for so many of us.

Yes, his book “Be Here Now” changed countless lives. Yes, his work with Seva Foundation cured 5 million people of blindness. Yes, he taught almost nonstop for 50 years, spreading wisdom and humor, wild devotion and love and a vast timeless mystical perspective across the world. His obituaries will be filled with his many other accomplishments.

For me he is family and Sangha, even now still spreading his playful, tough, delicious love everywhere, connecting with our hearts. “Yum, yum,” as he would say.

He was so ready to leave the wheelchair and skinny and broken body, to go home.

Home is not somewhere else.

It is here, in life and death, in the eternal dance of consciousness, weaving together form and the formless mystery from which it all comes.

Ram Dass is the vastness reminding us that in the end, there is only love.

~ Jack Kornfield, two years ago🙏

Be Here Now

Please read aloud, pause in-between, and listen to the poetic heart-words of a Great Teacher...a Beloved Guru, and a true inspiration for so many of us throughout this life.

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We're fascinated by the words--but where we meet is in the silence behind them.

The quieter you become, the more you can hear.

It is important to expect nothing, to take every experience, including the negative ones, as merely steps on the path, and to proceed.

The most exquisite paradox… as soon as you give it all up, you can have it all. As long as you want power, you can't have it. The minute you don't want power, you'll have more than you ever dreamed possible.

I would like my life to be a statement of love and compassion - and where it isn't, that's where my work lies.

In most of our human relationships, we spend much of our time reassuring one another that our costumes of identity are on straight.

The heart surrenders everything to the moment. The mind judges and holds back.

Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness.

As long as you have certain desires about how it ought to be you can't see how it is.

Treat everyone you meet like God in drag.

The most important aspect of love is not in giving or the receiving: it's in the being. When I need love from others, or need to give love to others, I'm caught in an unstable situation. Being in love, rather than giving or taking love, is the only thing that provides stability. Being in love means seeing the Beloved all around me.

Suffering is part of our training program for becoming wise.

What you meet in another being is the projection of your own level of evolution.

The spiritual journey is individual, highly personal. It can't be organized or regulated. It isn't true that everyone should follow one path. Listen to your own truth.

Let's trade in all our judging for appreciating. Let's lay down our righteousness and just be together.

Only that in you which is me can hear what I'm saying.

Everything changes once we identify with being the witness to the story, instead of the actor in it.

We are all affecting the world every moment, whether we mean to or not. Our actions and states of mind matter, because we are so deeply interconnected with one another.

A feeling of aversion or attachment toward something is your clue that there's work to be done.

The next message you need is always right where you are.

I would say that the thrust of my life has been initially about getting free, and then realizing that my freedom is not independent of everybody else. Then I am arriving at that circle where one works on oneself as a gift to other people so that one doesn't create more suffering. I help people as a work on myself and I work on myself to help people.

I'm not interested in being a "lover." I'm interested in only being love.

The game is not about becoming somebody, it's about becoming nobody.

Learn to watch your drama unfold while at the same time knowing you are more than your drama.

If you think you're free, there's no escape possible.

Every religion is the product of the conceptual mind attempting to describe the mystery.

It's only when caterpillarness is done that one becomes a butterfly. That again is part of this paradox. You cannot rip away caterpillarness. The whole trip occurs in an unfolding process of which we have no control.

We're here to awaken from the illusion of separateness

We're all just walking each other home.

~ Ram Dass now, just as before,

at home with Divinity

[lifenconcepts]

In my past life of which I remember surprisingly a lot despite also being so little, is mostly shrouded in a feeling of weaponised despair and rebellious comfort. I also well believe it to be somewhat of an explanation as to why I had certain urges which have never been acted upon and yet thought of immensely about running away or harming those who wronged me, and just waiting for the moment it occurs, then staring back at my past and realising everything was alright. but in the past life I wasn’t bound to one place, I was constantly moving, and it’s something I still crave now, but at far less of a level. Seeing new sights and people, constantly going places, changing identities, and especially since it was the time when documents weren’t all that important, it was much easier to hide away somewhere and not really be looked for. main themes that constantly reoccur with spouts of nostalgia for the time which I’ve long passed are any night time scenes, especially those in the UK, US, and USSR. Scrap metal, brick walls, beaten down cars, discarded needles, telegraph piles, etc etc.. and sometimes whenever the rain hits just right or I walk down a new road which feels that bit more familiar than it should or I feel a sense of mischief upon being out by myself after dark, I remember the times of where my soul had lived through agony, and bask in the calmness of which is now. I’m hyper aware I’m easily prone to substance abuse, I still feel vaguely intruiged on the matter, but I’ve never turned to it in this lifetime. Yet I can not say I haven’t interacted with it at all.. it’s just.. past life. That thing which most people consider to be made up. consider to be strange, unclear, confusing..for me it’s beautiful.

anyways idk what your original post was on about but I felt prompted to write about this aha yay!

I want to hear about other worlds. Tell me something about your world, please

[loopyn3]

Great God Grove spoilers/character discussion ahead!

And some spoiler-y doodles

About Hector because of course it’s about him.

His entire arc is just so melancholic and tragic,

If I may, I’ve been taking a sort of deeper look into his mental goop so-to-speak, and I feel like his jealousy/anger surrounding King can be read in a lot of different contexts. It almost seems like it didn’t stop at simply King being the hot new thing and him being nervous he’d lose his place, but more so the idea that King didn’t have to change all that much about herself to be as deified as she seems. From what we know she’s very confident with herself, her God form even being pretty faithful to how she looks as a human(mentioned in the art book which you should totally go buy, it’s so lovely seeing all the concept art and the commentary is such a treat :]).

Meanwhile it’s kind of implied that Hector really had to claw his way up the spire, working tirelessly to help people, yes, but also to earn his place amongst the gods. He’s stressed out of his mind, he’s always working- I really can’t imagine he was all that stable to begin with in terms of self-identity/worth.

Plus, most if not all his relationships seem to be tied to this one purpose. I can’t imagine the thought of “if I fail I won’t have anything or anybody to go back to.” hasn’t crossed his mind AT LEAST once.

I reblogged a post showing screenshots of Robart and Peeps talking about how, as a human, he tended to act concerningly selflessly, almost seeming desperate. That really doesn’t come across as a normal reaction to just wanting to do good by people, at least not in a ‘normal’ capacity.

Hector, to me at least, comes across as a very self-critical guy. He’s always striving to do good by others… but also to be praised and adored by them. I can only imagine after so many years of toiling away, feeling that pressure building more and more to do well, spending years of his life hoping that he’ll be voted in that he’s sort of lost a piece of himself to this whole process? Something something ship of Theseus.

There’s this thing that happens when a project consumes your life, when it almost seems like your entire life’s purpose is built around this one thing that, once it’s done, it really doesn’t feel like you’ve accomplished anything. What’s left is this sort of numb emptiness, the absence of said purpose.

What are you supposed to do, then? Now that it’s over? Is there anything left for you to do?

Did you even have a purpose in the first place?

So you desperately grasp for new projects, trying to find anything to fill that ever present void that just seems to never go away no matter how many sleepless nights you spend working and working and working-

Or maybe I’m reading too deep into it teehee

Point is, Hector is just so important he is my reason to wake up in the morning he means so much to me asjfkkfksfc ;;;;;

[thekaratcake-blog]

Clearin' some shit up

Some people have decided to take my issue with misinformation as an issue with the groups that spread it, so let's clear some shit up First, the most important shit I fully and wholeheartedly support everyone in the queer community, this includes intersex people, anyone on the trans spectrum, anyone of any sexuality I'm a firm believer in "don't fight for what you think a community wants, actually ask them what they want" and "nothing about us without us" I however absolutely despise misinformation, pseudoscience or general disregard for science and I will call it out when I see it I absolutely despise things using other terms of legitimate identity or causes to try and elevate themselves to an unearned level of legitimacy, however if you're open and honest about the reailty and level of legitimacy of your label, that's fine, if you're not pretending it's something that it's not, that's fine, as long as, of course, it isn't hurting anyone If you claim something that isn't scientifically supported, that's okay, don't expect me to take it as absolutely fact, but if it's not hurting anyone, that's okay If you claim something that is actively against the scientific consensus, that is not okay, expect backlash from me If you think I'm wrong about one of my views on a scientific or at least somewhat solid basis, I'm more than happy to hear, I want to learn and understand people as best as possible, and being wrong is great as it means I've learnt and grown However obviously if your basis for me being wrong is "well I think so" or "well you can't absolutely 100% prove that this doesn't happen so" basic any sort of fallacious reasoning, I'd personally suggest you don't waste your time, but if you want to try anyway, expect me to call out flawed or fallacious reasoning If you just want to message me to insult me or say useless shit that doesn't lead anywhere or progress anything, go nuts, I will then reply to it as if you said something completely different and turn it into an interesting learning or fact moment, so that it's not entirely wasted And finally, I'm not looking for this shit, I'm not on any tags for it, infact I've blacklisted a few of them to try and see less of it, but tumblr keeps showing it to me, I am not targetting any groups, I just call out misinformation when I see it, and tumblr is just for some reason only showing it to me from those specific groups, but I've called it out for groups that I'm in as well The reality is, I'm here on tumblr for memes, and because my partner @muffinmuffinx3 is on here, and I love them and like to see and share lil memes back and forth, but if I see shit that I have something to say about, I generally do, it's just how I am, I'm autistic, I'm weird, I'm just lke that, sorry, that's just how I do things really, maybe it'll change over time and I'll start to behave differently, but if that does happen, it'll be naturally, not because someone yelled at me and told me I'm doing tumblr wrong If you have any questions about my beliefs or suggestions of something to add to this, send it to me in an ask or reblog this or reply to it or whatever you want to do really, lmk, even private message me, I don't really care how you do it just lmk

[freedom-of-speech333]

Fae Joker AU-

A brief overview of Fae and Changelings

Fae Joker AU Masterpost Link

The abilities of Fae

True Fae (Joker, Lady Shiva, Constantine) and Half-Fae (Anarky, Cassandra Cain) are born with wings that they can extend and hide at will. When hidden, they appear as markings on their backs.

The Joker had Dragonfly wings, which were burned off when he fell into a vat of acid while traveling through Gotham in an attempt to meet the local cryptid (Batman). This, along with Gotham’s curse, caused his mind to break as he grew crueler and more sadistic in his ‘jokes’, peaking when he killed Jason Todd as the second Robin and maimed Anarky, his own son.

Anarky and Cass have different ways of hiding their wings to protect their civilian identities.

Cass has owl wings, and has never shown them in public, to the point people assume she is human. This is especially funny when they ask her about Dick (who is human) being a Fae.

Anarky has dragonfly wings like the Joker, and has shown them in public as his appearances both as Jokers child and later as Bruce Wayne’s son and ward. When he goes out as Corvid, he uses his magic to make them appear like raven wings.

Fae have illusion type magic, as well as an integral sense of things. This could be called high wisdom, or intuition, but putting an exact definition done is near impossible as it develops differently in every Fae.

True Fae cannot lie. Even the Joker, poisoned and altered by the acid, cannot lie. Joker’s ‘lies’ are a direct result of his delusions altering his mind and what he believes to be true. Most Fae speak through half truths.

Half Fae can lie, but it is painful and immediately evident in their appearance. It goes against their nation and this reflex can not be trained away. This is why it is important for them to learn to only say what is needed and redirect the conversation as needed.

Fae are weakened by iron

True Names hold indomitable sway over Fae, forcing them to do the speakers bidding and causing them immense pain. Only the parent of a Fae knows another’s name, and even the accidental speaking of a name is considered a tremendous breach of trust.

Most fae go by simple names such as ‘Lady Shiva’ ‘Joker’, ‘Anarky’.

Anarky keeps the placeholder name his father (Joker) gave him, as it is a reminder that he can choose his own path, regardless of others.

Extra tidbit: Joker was originally a kind parent who spent every sane moment caring for his son, the child he had with Batman, his own true match. Bruce left Anarky on the belief that Joker was better suited to care for a Fae child and that Joker would never hurt his own son. This was true for many years, but the gradual deterioration of Joker’s sanity eroded even his compassion for his son.

The abilities of Changelings

Tim Drake is a changeling, bargained for by his parents who needed an heir to secure the Drake Inheritance.

Changelings are considered a lesser fae, and not much is know about them other than how they come into the world to people in need/want of children.

Changeling DNA is not inheritable, so there are no half changelings.

Changeling children are very intelligent creatures, who adapt well to their surroundings and can often take care of themselves from a young age.

Changelings can change their appearance, but otherwise have no magic abilities. Most never awaken this ability in the first place, keeping the same form.

Changelings are attuned to magic, though not as much as other magical races. They can sense strong magic influences as slight fluctuations in energy or ‘vibes’.

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There was a brief overview of the fae races for my Fae Joker AU. Next up will be demons and ghosts. Why? Damian is half-demon and Jason is a ghost inhabiting his former body, that was strengthened by Talia and the Lazarus pit. (And Steph as part vampire.)

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[genderqueerdykes]

Just wanted to say your blog really helped me unlearn damaging and harmful ideas about both myself, my queer identity, and the queer community as a whole. I don't like the person I was a year or two ago, but I'm happy that I'm trying to change and learn instead of being stuck in those awful mindsets I was in before. You've been a genuine light at the end of the tunnel, thank you for educating me <3

i really love this message, thank you for taking the time to send it!

when i was young, i had shitty beliefs, too. i wasn't born into this world as accepting as i am now. i had to go through quite a bit in life to realize that i had some absolutely bullshit ideas about other people's lives and identities. it took me quite a while to work towards being as open minded as possible. i'm very proud of you- it's okay to not like that person- it means you've grown out of something genuinely harmful to you

everyone has to learn and grow. i'm very proud of you for doing so, and i hope that you are kind to yourself. people make mistakes. how we handle them is what's important. mistakes are how we grow!

[tealeaf29]

ARCANE SEASON 1 AND 2 SPOILERS

Y’know what? I’m gonna say it:

As a system myself, Jinx/Powder is a system.

It’s difficult to pin point the exact point of the split, and whether or not it even happens on screen, but I’m gonna say Powder’s breakdown in season 1 episode 3 is the first time we see Jinx fronting.

Throughout most of season 1, Jinx is in front. Not all the time, but a lot of the time.

People already talk quite a bit about how the arcane animators put time and effort into differentiating Powder and Jinx as two separate entities, is it really a stretch to call them a system?

Here’s the part that’s tripping me up though.

“Jinx is dead.”

I’m not sure who says that line.

Personally, I think it’s Jinx we see bonding with Isha. I think it’s Jinx we see talking about Powder being a stupid name. I think it’s Jinx we see saying Jinx is dead.

The best scene I think for showing the concept that Ninx and Powder are separate people, separate alters, is season 1 episode 6, when Vi and her sister reunite. It’s Powder that sets off the flare. It’s Jinx who angrily throws the flare on the ground. It’s Powder who fronts when Vi says her name and it’s Powder Vi hugs. But it’s Jinx who points PowPow at Vi. It’s Jinx who fires upon the Firelights with a smile on her face. It’s Powder who watches her sister get taken, and it’s Jinx who cries out in outrage moments later.

Second best scene for this is season 1 episode 9’s tea party scene. I don’t think I need to really explain that one too much, and there’s so much more I wanna say and I don’t want this to be too long.

Now, bare with me, it’s been a minute since my last rewatch but hear me out:

I think the last time we see Jinx is season 2 episode 4. Everything, and I do mean everything after she realizes she’s fighting Vander is Powder.

Do I think Jinx is gone? No. I just think she realized she doesn’t have to protect Powder anymore.

And I think there are two scenes that support this idea.

Season 2 episode 8, when Vi goes to break her out of prison and convince her sister to fight.

Vi pointedly calls her “Jinx”. Like a person trying to show they’re learning. I’ve seen this very thing myself as a system. Someone gets used to a new alter(in this case, Jinx) fronting, that they accidentally call another alter(in this case, Powder) by the wrong name.

She goes on to say “maybe we can rewrite your story, just like you rewrote Zaun’s.”

She’s saying “we can erase Powder, Jinx is all that matters, right?”

And, from an outside perspective, that’s not only a fair thing to say, but honestly super cute of her as a sister. I’ve seen people reading Jinx as a trans allegory, ESPECIALLY season 1 Jinx, and if it were, this would be a super great thing for Vi to say. But it’s not. At least, not by this point in season 2. If we do want to look at it as a gender allegory, then it works really well as a genderfluid allegory. But that’s not what I’m talking about.

No, Vi says the wrong thing here. She makes it clear she views her sister as a singular entity. Either Powder or Jinx. The issue is, especially at this point in the story, she’s not. And that’s not even me being like “I’m gonna state my personal headcanon/analysis as fact.” That’s just true. Schnee on YouTube does a much better job of explaining the dichotomy between the two identities in his “How EKKO Redefines Time” video that I 100% recommend(this video is actually what got me thinking about Jinx/Powder as a system).

The other scene, is Ekko trying to convince her to help. Ekko says two things here that are important. First, he says “Pow- Jinx.”

He doesn’t view them as a singular entity.

To the trans allegory thing for a moment, this is a really good line if you wanna read Jinx that way, because almost every single trans person who’s changed their name has likely heard “Deadna- Name” at least once(substitute for appropriate names of course). And it’s cute that Ekko corrects himself if that’s how you’re choosing to view it.

But it’s this line that gives her pause.

Ekko then goes on to say “no matter what happened in the past, it’s never too late to build something new.”

He’s not saying to erase the past. To erase Powder. He’s saying to move on from the past. To accept that Powder and Jinx are both present.

That is what convinces her to fight. Ekko telling her “it doesn’t matter, Jinx, Powder, whoever you are, whoever you choose to be, it’s not too late for you.”

Am I little biased when I claim Ekko is the only reason Jinx fights? Maybe a little, TimeBomb are one of my favourite ships in Arcane(though post-season 2 I stumbled upon LightCannon and I think they might be my fav Jinx ship now). But I don’t think that matters.

Do I think the writers intended Jinx to have DID? Definitely not.

Do I think the writers intended Jinx to be an allegory for DID? Maybe.

But it’s fun to analyze, and read representation in characters that wasn’t necessarily intended.

But, yeah, Jinx/Powder is now a system in my headcanon and you can’t convince me otherwise because it’s a headcanon and I can do what I want in my headcanons.

[pamicakery]

How to harvest your energetic signature to have the life you want by 2025 (I can feel that this post will be chef kiss 🥰)

First of, what is an energetic signature?

Your energetic signature is your 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

Energetic ID card!!!

Stunned aren't ya? Haha yes it is.

It's a bunch of information you transmit energetically to the universe or in other words, who you are.

The universe doesn't see you, it doesn't speak with words, human language, it doesn't punish you, rewarding you.

Because the universe is reflecting who you are.

I bet you will come at me and asking me

'' But I already know that, I am the universe and the universe is me but I still don't have my desires yet ''

Dear buddy, let me explain to you the magic of

✨Energetic signature ✨

Like I said before, Energetic signature is who you are, example :

this is Joe 🧍🏻

He wants to manifest their desired life, he want to be rich. He grew up really poor and wants to live a life full of abundance, money and wealth.

Here's Joe Energetic dominant pattern :

Affirmations : Oh my god, I am so poor.

Dominant thoughts : I have to pay this and that. So much to pay.

Identity : I am poor

Emotions :Frustration, sadness and jealousy toward rich people.

What is their energetic signature? What does their ID card says?

He is poor, he haves so much to pay, he is frustrated, sad, he doesn't have money.

In addiction to that, he doesn't control his reality and let the 3d control him . So he lives in a loop of suffering.

Is it the Universe punishing him?

No, it's himself, first because he choose to be controlled by the outside and second because he doesn't change internally.

The 3d is not your enemy, it's your compass. It's here to show you, your reality signature. What you are seeing, you are sending this energy to the universe.

Let's go back to the story. One day, Joe said :

'' My life is flashing in front of me. I can't let 2025 being one more year of solitude. I am sick of it. I am not happy with my life, I gonna change it. ''

So, Joe took a paper, and wrote the energy he wants to send to the universe.

Affirmations :God I am so rich.

Dominants thoughts : I can have this and that.

Identity : I am wealthy

Emotions :satisfaction, hapiness, joy.

Joe felt good, he felt different. Despite the fact that Joe still have his bills to pay, he said to himself

'' It doesn't matter if I have bills to pay, what matter is the energy I am sending to the universe. Since the universe doesn't see the bills, I will send it the feeling of satisfaction I have paying them ''

What does the universe understands?

That Joe is happy to pay his bills, he is satisfied. Joe doesn't feel frustration anymore, he is happy and satisfied now.

But the universe wants to be sure of that fact. So, it will send more things to pay.

Example : Joe's car crashed and he have a bills of 1000$ to pay.

Joe's old Energetic ID card said that :

'' He is poor, he haves so much to pay, he is frustrated, sad, he doesn't have money.''

But Joe is not defeated, he knows that the energy he is sending to the universe it's important. He knows that it's not the 3d who is controlling him. He knows that by changing his former energetic signature, he will show the universe that he controls his reality.

So he said :

Affirmations :God I am so rich.

Dominants thoughts : I can have this and that.

Identity : I am wealthy

Emotions :satisfaction, hapiness, joy.

He is slowly but surely taking his life back. He knows that the energy he is sending to the universe it's important, very important because he knows that his emotions will get back to him.

So he must make the universe understand that he is happy and wealthy. He is focusing his attention on things that make him feel happy, and rich.

He thinks like a rich person, speak to himself like a rich person. Doesn't matter if he is faking his emotions, the universe will believe it because it doesn't have eyes.

That's why people can do bad things but are still rich, because the energy they are sending to the universe is : I am rich.

You don't need to take action, like buying clothes a size under your current one, running miles and drink lemon water, or buying a huge mansion, or even forcing a dialogue with your Sp.

It will be useless because your energy signature will be : desperation or hope.

Hope is desperatly waiting for the outside to give you what you want. In other words, you are not in control.

So when you will see something bad happen, you'll feel desperation.

And guess what? The universe will not send you Satisfaction. It will send you desperation.

Affirming, scripting, visualizing are tools to help you generate that emotion you are seeking for. But you are the most important thing in the universe, because the universe lives because of you. You create everything in this world, every event, every people are a reflection of you, everything.

Again, Shorts emotions doesn't manifest because there's aren't dominant or strong.

But repeated and dominant emotions does.

I want you to realise that you've been manifested your life by sending the same energetic signature to the universe years after years.

The only one should be coaching you is yourself. So stop giving money to coaching. You need discipline. Coaches won't change your energetic signature for you.

And remember, if you are Solid internally (meaning that no matter what you see, you're still sending the same energy to the universe) it will be solid externally.

Like Michael Jackson said :

'' If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change ''

Here are some example :

'' I love my Sp. And they love me too. I am in a loving and respected relationship. I feel loved, understood and I love spending time with them like they love the spend time with me ''

➡️They feel loved. They are in a loving relationship right now.

'' I feel so beautiful. I love my face, my hair, my body. I love to try on new clothes, I love admiring myself in the mirror. People look at me and find me beautiful too ''

➡️They feel beautiful. They love themselves, they have a beautiful face, body and hair. And everyone sees that too.

'' I shift so easily, I just sleep and boom I am in my Dr. I can do so much things there, it was so easy. I love shifting and finally being able to stay there ''

➡️They are so satisfied to shift easily. They are free do to whatever they want to do. Shifting is easy for them, they finally have their dream life.

Control your mind, control your life. And the best is that you will be not searching for it outside, because you'll know that all the answers are in your mind.

'' If I am searching for it, it means that I don't have it solidly in my mind. ''

You know what to do ~.

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Gosh these are all such good additions!!

Yeah, it's Lestat who tells Armand Les Innocents will be exhumed- merchants in the area were complaining of the stink of corpses coming from the cemetery, it was going to be removed for being a public health hazard. And so it's extra tragic that neither of them know that this whole situation will play out again a century later when they meet again, with the same disastrous results.

And you're so right that in some ways Lestat is the most nostalgic of them all. Where Armand gets his past ripped away from him or he chooses to destroy it himself, Lestat makes monuments to his. He restores every important place of his to its state when he was most happy there and if he was never happy there, creates an entirely new vision of what could have been.

I'm always disappointed we don't get much on his interactions with the aristocracy in Paris. He makes Auvergne so similar to Versailles in so many ways, right down to holding scheduled plays just as Louis XIV did. Like he's trying to recreate what was a golden era for a fraction of society into a golden moment for the extremely small vampire population.

And that's such a good point about Marius, and it's interesting how he doesn't just lose a place but a cultural identity where no other vampire seems to hold to that as strongly. His Roman-ness is his essence for his entire existence, but being French doesn't seem to be a core value of Lestat, just like being from Kyiv isn't one of Armand's. There's not nearly enough talk about how culture and language form identities for us, and the vampires who struggle most either have very little sense of that identity or way too much of it.

perhaps this is actually one of the major reasons that vampires destined to be long-lived tend to have periods of hibernation: maybe losing individual people is one thing, but literally everything around you quite another… <- This! This exactly! It would be easier to sleep it off and be shocked by the new changes than to see everything slowly erode around you. And maybe this is why some vampires can't stay in one place for long and are ever traveling when they are awake (and why it was so difficult for Armand to establish Trinity Gate, because he did say he had to fight tooth and nail for it: for once its occupants would have to commit to being tethered to a city together long term)

Armand, Haussmann, and Paris:

The thing about Paris that's not really discussed in the VC books themselves is the Haussmann project.

In 1853 Napoleon III commissioned Haussman to completely renovate Paris. The plan was to tear down all of the old structures and rebuild the city; reorganizing the streets and reshaping them to accommodate more green spaces, and replacing smaller buildings with taller apartment blocks in more uniform style.

The Paris Armand knew when he arrived as the coven master and which he came to know as the theater leader would have looked something like this:

Dark, winding streets leading off wide boulevards and short, leaning buildings.

The Haussman project would see all of these places systematically torn down, occupants removed to other areas of the city while new buildings were put in their place. In some areas workers were destroying and rebuilding things 24 hours a day.

At this time Armand would have been living at the theater on the boulevard du Temple, Paris's street of theaters:

This dagguerotype shows the boulevard in 1838. This painting, in 1862, looks much the same:

But by 1863 all but one theater on the street had been destroyed, and that was only because that theater was on the opposite side of the street shown in the painting. How and why it wasn't pulled down, I don't know- no information on it seems to exist, just like no explanation for the very small handful of other old structures that were left untouched.

That theater, the Théâtre Déjazet, still exists today. But it was established in 1770 by Comte de Artois, so while it could have been Anne's inspiration for Armand's theater it's not the 'rickety wooden rat trap' that seats 300 that Lestat describes in TVL.

Anyways, knowing all of this, I think it makes even more sense why Armand so quickly grabbed onto Louis and was ready to run away with him at any cost.

Armand, who'd been kidnapped from the monks, who'd had his palazzo torn out from under him, who'd established something of an existence under Les Innocents and was then ripped out of that world when the cemetery was destroyed. Who was watching the city he'd finally come to know get systematically torn apart. Everything that was familiar to him was being taken again.

So why not let Louis burn the theater? He arrived in Paris in 1870, just as Haussman was dismissed. But the work of destroying and rebuilding Paris was set to carry on. Chances were the Theatre de Vampires would be next, and if that were the case there's no way the crypts beneath the place would remain safe and undiscovered.

And if he'd stayed where would they go during the renovation? What would they do? What would the point be in continuing trying to run a coven he was bored of and a life he didn't care for in a new location?

Armand was going to have to begin again somewhere- better that be with Louis, out in the world, than roaming a now unfamiliar Paris. And even though he didn't burn the theater himself, allowing/instigating Louis to do it still gave him more control than letting a stranger come in at some unpredictable moment to demolish things all over again.

(And what of Lestat, what does he feel about these changes? He never could have shown Louis the Paris he knew and loved, which existed when Louis was still mortal- that Paris was largely gone)

Chances were Anne might not have known most of this at the time she wrote interview or even TVL. But I think it still makes a lot of sense and brings up a point about Armand and immortality that I don't see brought up much- that not only do vampires lose every mortal they've ever known, but with time they also see the destruction of every place they've ever known or loved.

(ps: I'm not an expert on this topic or anything, so if anyone does know why some buildings were unchanged or has any interesting historical info to add by all means please, reblog and add it on!)

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